just as you please

This is a grieving process.


Each of these is created through finding myself left in the spaces around what has been lost, spending time with first the joys and then the sadnesses of words that now mean universes to me, discovering what colors and feelings exist there.


It is being left in the absence of those things that causes me to feel the gravity of loss while finding understanding of only the great joy and love that could leave such a heavy hole.